Emotions Gone Wild

Today has been a rather emotional day. I have gone from feeling okay to feeling downright helpless and lost. I have smiled and cried all within a 5 minute time period. I feel that in ways this whole mediation being put off...yet again..is really unfair in ways but then try to reassure myself that it could be a lot worse. I don't know what to make of everything. I just know that it feels like I want to be able to move on with my life and get things together and in order so that my girls and I can get on with things and I feel like we can't move on because this whole divorce thing is holding us up. It's driving me crazy.